the minutes

drained head and ankles holding fist mudra. drained my feet, 3 hours of butterfly.
drained my back, held chalice mudra for 4 hours.
drained my heels for 3 1/2 hours 1/2 hour or so of sun salutation... dream: a star destroyer destroyed by a tiny piece of metal... realize star destroyer is old dying womans breast.
8 hours of cosmic mudra left over right, felt a great amount of light, used negative energy
to destroy my selfishness.
did locks around myself, feel my energy being saved...
made it to 23 or of 108 form at red barn.
chanted a chapter of lotus sutra.
drained top of my head for a while. held reaching, first part of sun salutation for an hour or so.
held willy, trying to subdue at least self love, transcend sex as a goal. A feeling of my head, as a giant penis tip, wholly unpleasant, images of darth vader hat.
Drained my forhead for an hour.
held palms to ground for 8,000 breaths.
shambhavi, held feet together for an hour or so.
Held second knuckle of index finger on top for 4 hours in gazebo.
realized dead are more appreciated than living.
feel inspired to work on basic asanas from desikichar's book.
sat in half wise woman for an hour or so toward two of four directions.
heel tapped, realized there are 35 such mudras.
14 egolessness, holding thumb and thumb in fist, and then holding other thumb to a long finger.
holding all of them for 1,000 breaths each, feel a passionate bliss at base of spine.
leaning back, holding hands to the ground... helps to realized perfection of effort.
vajrasattva sadhana in arboretum, lit incense and said it facing 8 directions (only made it to 6 or 7). felt crown strongly, where ushnisha is. then did a shoulderstand in 8 directions for about 200 or 250 breaths each.
tai chi in park, held 1, 2, and 3 of form for a while, about 1,000 breaths.
held back, had feeling of brain as giant toomer.
held chalice mudra right over left (8 hours?)
held armpits for 4 hours crossways.
a beautiful voice guided me through wishes meditation... a feeling of leaping from hell to home.
sat in celibacy pose left foot to right thigh for 2 and 1/2 hours, had to massage left buttocks because it would hurt so much.
held right hand to left hip and left hand to right buttocks from 2:48-7 AM. Gross bliss from it subsided into a more subtle bliss eventually. I feel much calmer.
drained calfs for a little while.
Held Angali mudra from 8PM until 2:30 AM... felt spinal connections popping and a web at my heart.
Like a jewel was being stolen by fisherman.

held celibacy from 11:48-1:58, right foot to left inner thigh
drain nose, right hand, thumb to tip of index finger, 9:14-9:35. feel clearer sinuses.
between tips of index and middle fingers 9:43-10
between tips of middle fingers and thumb 10:05-10:23
right middle finger up butt 8:20-1:01
1292 breaths leaning back with hands on ground across from google.
chanted at kirtan, held cosmic mudra at different energy levels.
right pinky to right butt cheek 6:04-9:29
drain nose, right hand tip of thumb to middle finger tip
right hand 9:31-9:58
had a dream with penguins launched out of cannons (eek)
hands on ground lying on back, feeling of chi in hands 10:23-11:34
chalice mudra 11:40AM-3PM hands entangled right hand forward
left pinky to left butt cheek 4:40 am-7:19 am
drain nose, thumb between tip of middle and ring fingers... end 12:43
idea comes... a worksheet for all asanas and mudras, and their combinations, in 8 directions
with 15, 30 and 1 hour with date, up to 24 hours, a description of experience when completed,
an outline for completing a school for young yogis.

pinkys to soles 5:04-5:44
pinkys to ankles on outside 5:46-6:03
pinkys to inside of ankles 6:03-6:13
pinkys to nob of foot 6:14-6:20
pinkys to calfs 6:21-6:34
pinkys to quads 6:35-6:37
pinkys to hamstring 6:37-6:39
right pinky to kundalini 6:37-6:39
left pinky to kundalini 7:05-7:08
prayer mudra at floor 7:21-7:36
other way 7:38-7:54
right index up butt 8:29-11:12
right thumb up butt 5:26-7:00
drain nose, ring finger to thumb 9:54-10:17
right ring finger to third eye 11:42-12:43
hold ankle, right ankle all fingers touching 1:34-3:58
holding right food in cosmic mudra 3:59-4:22
chalice mudra, hands entangled left hand forward 4:48-8:48
left pinky up butt 9:32-...? 12?
draining nose
hold left ankle, all fingers touching 11:50-12:47
right foot cosmic mudra, left over right
3:59-4:04
padma mudra on ground, 3,000 breaths, 5:50-6:51
hold right middle finger to third eye 5:50-6:51
drain nose, right ring finger 6:16-6:50
left ring finger up butt 6:54-???
11:12:34 basic chi practices.
padma mudra facing kitchen 1:21-2:22
hold index finger to third eye 2:51-3:52
wrapped house in shields by tai chi walking holding wrists
padma mudra facing gazebo 7:20-8:21
imprinted links and dhatus facing 4 directions on rug.
left middle finger up butt 11:13-2:40
drain nose, right ring finger and pinky tips together 10:48-11
tingling at base of spine.

(A strong sense I have incubus/sucubus stealing all my energy and life force.
whoever you are leave me now, and give back all you have stolen)

Plan concentrate on each combination of 2 letters, try samadhi on it.... AA AB AC... ZZ
padma mudra facing parents room 1:55-2:56
hold right thumb to third eye 2:59-4:00

Held bodhisattva/easy posture, left foot under right thigh until 1:30
imagined people mastering all the mudras and asanas.