feet

I read in a text by guru rinpoche, padmasambhava that hell is in our feet. sometimes feet hurt, but I had a few experiences that contradict this. when I bowed to Jamyangla's feet I felt an intense green bliss. Once, I wrote to Nick Arranof and said I was in hell right now, and then did a quick meditation on dependent origination and felt an intense bliss at my feet. In the hospital someone massaged my feet and I felt an intense bliss there. I think feet are just feet.

recounting

I was reading the lotus sutra and there was a chapter on the daughter of the powerful king of nagas that isn't in the sutra. I was reading the yoga sutras of Patanjali and there was a section about good and evil that wasn't in it the next time. I think things really are like a dream. I want to find the chapter on the daughter of the powerful king of nagas again because it said the benefit of the sutra was that one would be free from the lower realms. I guess miracles are there in a sense but they don't stay with you. They all have a message.

thinking over things

I felt this incredible bliss at my throat chakra during yoga nidra. Sometimes around Steve, the tai chi teacher, I feel blissful at my crown. I felt a red light at my throat chakra once at tai chi class. I love the spirit of tai chi class. It feels like everything will be OK. When I meditate on the New Meditation Handbook wishing love, etc. I feel so much love and bliss at my heart. I am so happy with my progress and owe my teachers everything and feel their wisdom growing inside me. Anothher time I felt my heart I was reading the sublime golden light sutra and read the chapter on the tigress, when it said Shakyamuni willingly endured hell for aeons I felt golden light at my heart. Normally I don't feel any chakras, just when I practice. I gave up school in a traditional sense and success for my spiritual practice. I stopped making assumptions and trusting the authorities and then I didn't finish college. In a many life perspective this has worked out much better. I'm still nervous about mandala offerings but I love the meditations of new meditation handbook. I want to start chanting the infinite life sutra chapters regularly. I love iron and wine a lot. When I saw the dalai lama I was hearing the voices guiding me again and meditated on how all beings have been every species of animal countless times, etc. and then I felt this red light rising from my mooladhara and I felt surrounded by a red shield. I felt my crown when I tried to visualize the dalai lama as 1,000 armed avaloketesvara. I'm reading Maitreya's middle beyond extremes. I pray my practice becomes stable and keeps growing so that I can be really happy. The band iron and wine makes me really happy. So does Regina Spektor.