I don't want

I don't want my dharma practice to be offering water bowls to pictures of Buddha. I want to clean the water of the world for all beings. I want to protect the water of the world for everyone. I don't want to get rich to eat my parents who are lobsters, shrimp, cows, and chickens. I want to embrace poverty, let the sun nourish me, and know that I am one with all of nature. I don't want to be a high lama who receives offerings of wealth. I want to work the fields of organic farms or gather what nature gives like the birds. I don't want to sit and watch as war destroys the world. I want to protest, petition, write, meditate, pray and not give up until I'm blown away. I don't want to forget my teachers who showed me peace and love. I want to remember.

equlibrium

If there were a permanent bliss, nirvana, that could be achieved and there is beginingless time, if we haven't achieved it yet, we probably never will because we've had infinite time to. The idea that we could achieve it in one lifetime or in any finite amount of time seems preposterous. I think this is an equilibrium. All of existence is an equilibium. Beginingless time makes sense, but maybe not a continuity of consciousness. I don't know if consciousness arises from the brain or if it is more elemental. I think though that sometimes we are happy, sometimes sad, but overall this is as perfect as things can get, because the compassionate conscious forces in the universe have had infinite time to shape it. We are not seperate from those forces.