I have a job fixing chips in windshields. I met this guy who works for the same person named Gary. He told me he has seen Jesus in person and has been healed by him many times. He told me to read a book called "Face to Face Appearances from Jesus." The book said that anyone who read it would meet with Jesus face to face. The book talked about the authors encounters with Jesus and some other things. I finished the book and had not seen Jesus. I called Gary and asked him what I did wrong and he said a prayer for me to meet with him. I went to tai chi that day and met with Steve. I was telling him about the book and how I hadn't seen Jesus and I was joking with him, you're not Jesus are you? He said he didn't know. I didn't realize Steve was giving the tai chi lessons for free, so I insisted that he take an extra five dollars for himself even though it was hardly anything because he was dedicating a lot of time and effort to me. I called for a ride home from tai chi and on the way home my mom and I saw five orange lights in the sky. They must have been in the atmosphere because they were moving in the sky as we were driving. When we got home we could still see three and they were moving even as we were still. My mom went to get my dad. By the time my Dad got outside the lights had flown away.
It is weird. Sometimes I will stare at the stars lying on my back. I will concentrate as best I can on one star sometimes. Sometimes that one star will appear to be moving in the sky, left, right, up, down. But when I stop focusing on it and stare at all the stars together I see that it is in the same place relative to the other stars so it couldn't have been moving. The Buddhists have this idea of enlightenment, and I don't know if I've ever seen an enlightened human, but undoubtedly the stars are enlightened. So I pray to them. One day I was talking to them, sometimes I call them God, and I was asking to see a sign. I forget what exactly I wanted a sign about. I might have asked for a sign to know if Nichelle is the right person for me, but maybe I was talking about something else, and then this orange streak of light appeared in the sky, a shooting star. It was orange.
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Thursday, November 10, 2011
I may get to work with Professor Noam Chomsky, or at least talk to him about what I can do to help him on his quest to disarm the weapons of the world
I wrote to Noam Chomsky several times and heard back from him. Nate O'Donnell told me I should offer to volunteer for him and eventually I decided it was a good idea and did.
Here's what I wrote him and what he wrote me back:
Dear Professor Chomsky,
I feel like I am doing nothing to contribute to the shift in consciousness and lifestyle necessary to see the disarmament of the weapons of the world that could end all life. I am doing very little to make society shift towards a sustainable economy that will prevent a huge collapse of the economy and the ecology that could happen at any time. You are the leader that has inspired me more than any other to shift how I view the government and the economy so that I can help save the world from disaster or at least stop contributing. I want to work for you. I could work for you full time and you wouldn't necessarily have to pay me anything. I could volunteer. I was diagnosed with schizophrenia so I get disability money from the government. If that could somehow pay enough for me to live in Boston where MIT is then I could donate many many hours doing whatever you think I should do. I revere you more than anyone. I was a great high school student. I did well in college until I read books like yours and others related to the problems facing the environment and I wanted an alternative path and I lost the necessary respect for the economics professors and ideas that would let me complete those assignments and studies. I don't think I could get into MIT to actually work with you as staff or as a student and even if I could you teach linguistics and not the stuff you write about in your other books. I'd imagine that there are a lot of people who want to help you. I will serve you and do whatever you think I should do. If you give me a list of ten books to read I will start reading them right away. If you tell me to write letters to specific people about specific issues I will do it. Right now I'm fixing chips in windshields. I have this hope that we can shift the tide of things so that the world starts to get better. I need someone to lead me. I expect you don't want my help, but if there is a one in a thousand chance that you could use my help it is worth the time writing this email to offer it. Below is a resume I wrote up very quickly and then I will give you contact information below that
Noam Chomsky responded:
I wrote back
Dear Professor Chomsky:
I hope you remember to write to me when you have some free time after a few months. I will have to remember to write to you in a few months to remind you. The things that interest me most are
1.) getting the nuclear weapons and other weapons of mass destruction disarmed in this country and other countries
2.) stopping the destruction of habitat such as forests and stopping pollution which are causing a mass extinction.
3.) working towards a government that respects the rights of all nations and peoples. This includes stopping the government atrocities you talked about in your book Hopes and Prospects.
4. working towards a sustainable economy that simultaneously provides everything that everyone needs. Maybe cars and computers are not sustainable enough for everyone to have one. Burning fossil fuels is unsustainable and probably is causing global warming. Two things that will limit us are soil erosion leading to desertification which is happening rapidly and the loss of fresh water through pollution as well as overuse for irrigation or other use.
I am not a Ph.D. like you. I try to read a lot. I try to live without harming anyone. I try not to contribute to the problems. I try to learn from ancient philosophies like taoism, Buddhism, yoga, and sometimes Christianity to find power within myself to be happy doing what is right. I guess that is what I can offer. I am so happy you might work with me!
Are there other areas other than the four I mentioned that you think I could help you with? Are you interested in any of those four areas?
Noam Chomsky wrote back:
Here's what I wrote him and what he wrote me back:
Dear Professor Chomsky,
I feel like I am doing nothing to contribute to the shift in consciousness and lifestyle necessary to see the disarmament of the weapons of the world that could end all life. I am doing very little to make society shift towards a sustainable economy that will prevent a huge collapse of the economy and the ecology that could happen at any time. You are the leader that has inspired me more than any other to shift how I view the government and the economy so that I can help save the world from disaster or at least stop contributing. I want to work for you. I could work for you full time and you wouldn't necessarily have to pay me anything. I could volunteer. I was diagnosed with schizophrenia so I get disability money from the government. If that could somehow pay enough for me to live in Boston where MIT is then I could donate many many hours doing whatever you think I should do. I revere you more than anyone. I was a great high school student. I did well in college until I read books like yours and others related to the problems facing the environment and I wanted an alternative path and I lost the necessary respect for the economics professors and ideas that would let me complete those assignments and studies. I don't think I could get into MIT to actually work with you as staff or as a student and even if I could you teach linguistics and not the stuff you write about in your other books. I'd imagine that there are a lot of people who want to help you. I will serve you and do whatever you think I should do. If you give me a list of ten books to read I will start reading them right away. If you tell me to write letters to specific people about specific issues I will do it. Right now I'm fixing chips in windshields. I have this hope that we can shift the tide of things so that the world starts to get better. I need someone to lead me. I expect you don't want my help, but if there is a one in a thousand chance that you could use my help it is worth the time writing this email to offer it. Below is a resume I wrote up very quickly and then I will give you contact information below that
Noam Chomsky responded:
Very pleased, and touched, to receive your very kind offer. I’d be very pleased to find a way to cooperate in matters that interest you. I have never actually had anyone working for me, but have often been involved in cooperative efforts. Maybe we could explore some options – though this is a bad time for me. For the next few months I have hardly a moment between travel abroad and intense commitments while I’m here.
Noam Chomsky
I wrote back
Dear Professor Chomsky:
I hope you remember to write to me when you have some free time after a few months. I will have to remember to write to you in a few months to remind you. The things that interest me most are
1.) getting the nuclear weapons and other weapons of mass destruction disarmed in this country and other countries
2.) stopping the destruction of habitat such as forests and stopping pollution which are causing a mass extinction.
3.) working towards a government that respects the rights of all nations and peoples. This includes stopping the government atrocities you talked about in your book Hopes and Prospects.
4. working towards a sustainable economy that simultaneously provides everything that everyone needs. Maybe cars and computers are not sustainable enough for everyone to have one. Burning fossil fuels is unsustainable and probably is causing global warming. Two things that will limit us are soil erosion leading to desertification which is happening rapidly and the loss of fresh water through pollution as well as overuse for irrigation or other use.
I am not a Ph.D. like you. I try to read a lot. I try to live without harming anyone. I try not to contribute to the problems. I try to learn from ancient philosophies like taoism, Buddhism, yoga, and sometimes Christianity to find power within myself to be happy doing what is right. I guess that is what I can offer. I am so happy you might work with me!
Are there other areas other than the four I mentioned that you think I could help you with? Are you interested in any of those four areas?
Noam Chomsky wrote back:
These are issues of fundamental importance. If we can figure out a way in which you can work on these issues and I can offer some help, let’s try. Maybe by January there’ll be enough time at least to talk about it.
Noam Chomsky
I heard back from Chip Hartranft who translated the yoga sutras. Here' what I wrote him and what he said
Dear Arlington Center,
I wanted to ask Chip Hartranft about the practice of the yoga sutras. I want to be able to practice dharana, dhyana, and samadhi. I want insights about the universe by meditating on the sun. I want to eradicate hunger and thirst by meditating on the pit of the throat. I want to attain the perspective of the perfected ones by meditating on the light at the crown of the head. I want to become luminous by mastering the flow of energy through the solar plexus. I want to master the elements. All these things Chip Hartranft's translation of the yoga sutras says are possible. But I cannot do any of these things. What am I supposed to do from the stage that I am at now to start to develop some of these amazing attainments? Are there some gradual stages of practice that I am capable of doing? I cannot figure out how to meditate properly to get these realizations just from reading books. Is there any advice or blessings that Chip can offer me. When I read the third chapter of the yoga sutras I feel it is as if they are teaching graduate school courses to somoene who doesn't know his alphabet yet. How do I get some realization?
I wanted to ask Chip Hartranft about the practice of the yoga sutras. I want to be able to practice dharana, dhyana, and samadhi. I want insights about the universe by meditating on the sun. I want to eradicate hunger and thirst by meditating on the pit of the throat. I want to attain the perspective of the perfected ones by meditating on the light at the crown of the head. I want to become luminous by mastering the flow of energy through the solar plexus. I want to master the elements. All these things Chip Hartranft's translation of the yoga sutras says are possible. But I cannot do any of these things. What am I supposed to do from the stage that I am at now to start to develop some of these amazing attainments? Are there some gradual stages of practice that I am capable of doing? I cannot figure out how to meditate properly to get these realizations just from reading books. Is there any advice or blessings that Chip can offer me. When I read the third chapter of the yoga sutras I feel it is as if they are teaching graduate school courses to somoene who doesn't know his alphabet yet. How do I get some realization?
Liam St. John
Dear Liam
Thank you for your note, which was forwarded to me.
The portion of the Yoga-sutra dealing with sh(r)amanic/animal powers is one of the most interesting and misunderstood aspects of the ancient yoga. The shamanic attainments and their place in the spirituality of early South Asian indigenes appears to have preceded liberation yoga - the primary theme of the Yoga-sutra - and co-evolved with it. If David Gordon White is to be believed - and at least in part, I think he might be - the shamanic aspect of the yogin has predominated throughout history, perhaps owing to its precedence but more probably due to the widespread appeal and interest in powers (not to mention the easy profit to be made from their pretense or misuse). That would explain why Patañjali dutifully includes them in his compendium of yogic lore - they are associated with samadhi, even though the powers themselves are not essential to attaining the path.
You see, some - but not all - yogis who develop higher levels of dhyana/jhana often notice some - but not all - of these sorts of powers arising spontaneously. In the Buddha's circle, for example, Maha Moggallana acquired several, while the most insightful of them all, Sariputta, did not.
I don't know if it is possible to say that any given person - say, you - will be gifted in this way, no matter what level of absorption is reached. It is important to realize, though, that the 'extraordinary powers' themselves are not liberating. In fact, the higher forms of concentration that may produce the powers are not enlightening in and of themselves, either. No one awakens to things as they are (yatha-bhutam) in mind & body while ensconced in the form or formless dhyana/jhanas. However, those who develop themselves through 'yoking' and progress to any degree of authentic collectedness (samadhi), even the first stages, will find themselves in the neighborhood of wisdom. Anytime you're in the neighborhood, cessation (nirodha) is a possibility, lying within reach. Just keep letting go...
By the way, the specifics of several of the vibhuti, including the 'pit of the throat' contemplation, have been buried by the shifting sands of time. That's not to say that there aren't a few contemporary teachers who confidently claim they know what the details are, but no one can say for sure what Patañjali meant. One thing is for certain, though - these are not in fact strictly relevant to wisdom. The awakening and liberation that the Yoga-sutra maps and describes involve stilling body and mind until the transparent yet luminous emptiness of awareness reveals itself and its utter freedom from causality.
If you wish to develop insight, and are seeking happiness and freedom rather than power, look for extended meditation retreats without alot of ideology. The best 'yogic' practice being taught these days, especially in the West, is at Buddhist retreat centers like the Insight Meditation Society in Barre, MA, and Spirit Rock in Woodacre, CA. Each is located in a beautiful setting and offers inexpensive retreats ranging from a weekend to IMS's annual three month retreat, taught by the most insightful meditation teachers from the US, Europe, and Asia.
Warm wishes,
Chip
Saturday, September 17, 2011
update
I came to a realization recently while I was at work. One of the assumptions of geometry is that there is such a thing as a point. A point is the smallest possible size and is located at a specific place. My realization was that if the point had a size, you could always zoom into it and you could preak it into parts, a top, a bottom, a left side and a right side. If it were infinitely small, it wouldn't exist at all and there would be no point. I called my friend Mike Adams who studied to be a math teacher and who I had a conversation with about the postulates of geometry. I told him I didn't think there was such a thing as a point and he said, well there's no such thing as a plane either because it would have length and width, but no height, and if it didn't have height it wouldn't exist at all. He said geometry was a logical structure based on assumptions that are false.
I got a job with Chips-All-Gone. I am fixing stone chips in windshields. I think it is going to pay enough money to allow me to get by. I want to make sure I keep exercising a lot and make sure I don't buy a car and start driving everywhere. It will be more of a challenge with a job.
I am visiting Nichelle in Bloomington. I don't know what we are going to do. There are some yoga classes we can go to. She got a job at Bear's and her first day is today. I am not sure how much time she will have free to spend with me.
Well, I like to talk about my dreams but I can only talk about ones that I can remember because I don't have my dream journal with me. In one dream there was this ocean of colored energy and the waves would hit me. It was incredibly beautiful. In another dream I was with Britten and we were looking at a drawing that someone drew about their possible futures. One of the pictures on it was soldiers. Well, my mind is kind of blank on other dreams. I don't remember any dreams from last night. I wonder why I dream sometimes and other times I cannot remember.
I read some things on the bus ride to Bloomington. I read a discover magazine. There was an article about dolphins. They did tests on dolphins to see if they were self conscious by putting a mark on them and then putting them next to a mirror to see if they noticed it. They have done the same tests to chimpanzees to prove they were self conscious. Both the dolphins and chimpanzees reacted to the marks. Some dolphin activists protested the rounding up of dolphins and the selling of them to places like sea world. They got a 100 million dollar lawsuit against them. It seems like such an excessive amount of money and it scares the part of me that wants to be an activist.
I got a job with Chips-All-Gone. I am fixing stone chips in windshields. I think it is going to pay enough money to allow me to get by. I want to make sure I keep exercising a lot and make sure I don't buy a car and start driving everywhere. It will be more of a challenge with a job.
I am visiting Nichelle in Bloomington. I don't know what we are going to do. There are some yoga classes we can go to. She got a job at Bear's and her first day is today. I am not sure how much time she will have free to spend with me.
Well, I like to talk about my dreams but I can only talk about ones that I can remember because I don't have my dream journal with me. In one dream there was this ocean of colored energy and the waves would hit me. It was incredibly beautiful. In another dream I was with Britten and we were looking at a drawing that someone drew about their possible futures. One of the pictures on it was soldiers. Well, my mind is kind of blank on other dreams. I don't remember any dreams from last night. I wonder why I dream sometimes and other times I cannot remember.
I read some things on the bus ride to Bloomington. I read a discover magazine. There was an article about dolphins. They did tests on dolphins to see if they were self conscious by putting a mark on them and then putting them next to a mirror to see if they noticed it. They have done the same tests to chimpanzees to prove they were self conscious. Both the dolphins and chimpanzees reacted to the marks. Some dolphin activists protested the rounding up of dolphins and the selling of them to places like sea world. They got a 100 million dollar lawsuit against them. It seems like such an excessive amount of money and it scares the part of me that wants to be an activist.
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
back in Ann Arbor
I am back in Ann Arbor. I put my resume up on craigslist pretty quickly after getting home and waited. The only real response I got was from a company called pre-paid legal Inc. The company sells legal insurance. For 17 dollars a month or so you can get unlimited phone calls to lawyers and unlimited letters written on your behalf. It doesn't sound like a bad product. However, when I tried to find third party information about the company I read on wikipedia that less than 25% of their sales representatives sold more than one plan in 2005. They want me to buy a plan before I sell any and that would cost me more than I am going to make. I don't want to sell anything to my friends and they expect you to market to your friends. So I turned down the job. I turned in a couple applications other places. I applied at the people's food co-op and the Northside Grill. Well, without work I have plenty of free time. I have been walking a lot, usually one trip downtown and back everyday on foot which is more than an hour of walking. I have been going to yoga and tai chi classes. I am going back through this huge packet of articles I had for yoga teacher training. I have had some spiritual experiences again like a feeling of bliss and peace at my third eye while reading the yoga teacher articles or feelings of peace and calm at yoga class. I felt chi in my hands after doing the tai chi form in class. I ran into Shawn Veeder again who likes to call himself nobody. I met this guy Harison when hanging out with Shawn. His parents were hari Krishnas so I guess the name is from Hari. We had great discussions about the most outlandish thoughts I have had and he gave me some more outlandish ideas I hadn't thought of before. I think the thoughts would seem outlandish to most people but during the discussion they seemed quite plausible. I have kept drawing at coffee shops. There are more coffee shops here so it is easier to find people to draw. Nichelle might visit Ann Arbor soon. More bliss to you all.
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
I leave California for Ann Arbor soon. I met a couple people who live in Willits at a party in Cobb. I visited them. They had a book by Terrence Mckenna that was pretty interesting. I only read the introduction and part of the first chapter. In that short space, he said the drug cartels were started by the government and he said the reason the human brain grew compared to our ape ancestors was because we started to ingest psychoactive plants such as mushrooms. When I get back to Ann Arbor I plan to go to tai chi class and yoga class as often as I can. I hope I have a new set of mystical experiences and realizations. It seems my old experiences at Buddhist centers and yoga centers and all my experiences meditating had no lasting impact. Perhaps I am just chasing temporary experiences. But if nothing is permanent, then I might as well make my temporary experiences as joyful as possible. I've been doing some art since I got to California. I don't think I will ever be able to make a living at it. My doubt makes my art teacher who is my uncle upset.
Saturday, April 23, 2011
dream
I dreamed last night they were breeding a race of people who could travel through space. Then there was a holocaust and they were all killed. I remember hiding in a forcefield ball.
Is it possible to see the future in a dream? Could some dreams be memories of past lives?
Is it possible to see the future in a dream? Could some dreams be memories of past lives?
Monday, April 18, 2011
starlight song
hey there starlight
I wish I could take flight
Patanjali says I can fly through space
I don't know if I can keep the pace
At the speed of light my body would be no more.
I'd be all alone for years, what a bore.
The stars are light years away.
What could I breathe so far away?
Why would God create this vast infinity,
if it wasn't for you and it wasn't for me?
Maybe we can be reborn on other planets
When we've been in one place too long and have just had it.
Hey there starlight
I wish I could take flight
staring into the vast galaxy
I wish I could travel free
Can I be like a little photon in the sky
Meeting no obstacles low or high
Can I illuminate a world with cities
Like sun's rays so full of pity
And if I found another place
would they teach me their language out of grace
what insights and truths wait to be revealed
to find out to every god I kneel
How can you say enlightenment is a myth?
I see the stars shining even through myst.
Hey there starlight
I wish I could take flight
I don't know if it's yoga or insanity
I'll take the risk to be more free
Just meditate on the ether
I'll meet mother maya and greet her
When I travel to a most distant place
What changes will have come to my body and face
Maybe I will be pure light
if that's what it takes for space flight
I wish I could take flight
Patanjali says I can fly through space
I don't know if I can keep the pace
At the speed of light my body would be no more.
I'd be all alone for years, what a bore.
The stars are light years away.
What could I breathe so far away?
Why would God create this vast infinity,
if it wasn't for you and it wasn't for me?
Maybe we can be reborn on other planets
When we've been in one place too long and have just had it.
Hey there starlight
I wish I could take flight
staring into the vast galaxy
I wish I could travel free
Can I be like a little photon in the sky
Meeting no obstacles low or high
Can I illuminate a world with cities
Like sun's rays so full of pity
And if I found another place
would they teach me their language out of grace
what insights and truths wait to be revealed
to find out to every god I kneel
How can you say enlightenment is a myth?
I see the stars shining even through myst.
Hey there starlight
I wish I could take flight
I don't know if it's yoga or insanity
I'll take the risk to be more free
Just meditate on the ether
I'll meet mother maya and greet her
When I travel to a most distant place
What changes will have come to my body and face
Maybe I will be pure light
if that's what it takes for space flight
Sunday, March 20, 2011
chigong
I watched a video about chigong. Some Chinese believe chigong can heal any disease. You would have to know which specific exercises heal what ailment though. There is no device that can measure chi but people can feel it. They did an experiment of putting a sensitive microphone to the palm of chigong masters who emit chi from their palms. They found chigong masters palm emit a sound that normal people's palm do not. I took a vow that may never be fulfilled to master all practices that I read in the commentary to the Infinite Life Sutra. I want to learn chigong. The yoga sutras talk about meditation on the life force as well. It says you will gain insights about reality if you meditate on it. I feel chi sometimes but have a long way to go.
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Dream Journal
I was lying on a beach. I left to go to the bathroom. I got a red IU/stop global warming T shirt. A man and woman wre lying down together.
One was looking and said looking for bisexual doesn't mean he's looking for a man.
With Josh Bailey. There's this woman talking and she shows her breasts. They're talking about a stock market bubble. They were on the other side of a soundproof door. Josh said something about trying to act gay. I was in a bed and Sadguru was there. I was blind. I got my vision back and was able to go to the bathroom. When I got back to the room, I saw videos and movies about Buddha. When I was getting my vision back he asked me what I saw. I saw two trees out a window. Playing basketball.
A swim meet. I'm locked out of my team's pool. a Dharma center or house. I'm fighting and trying to meet women.
Watching TV, put palm to screen cuz it lets me choose any scene. I change scenes. I hear the planets appeared differently in the past, so I think they are conscious and moving.
Jason was reading questions about a musician. I guessed Yanni.
Someone doing flips, rolling around. John and Joe jump across a stream with me. I almost fall back into the stream but pull myself up by grass.
I was in an airport looking for my plane. I went to the seventh floor. I asked someone... He was writing a sign that said Maryland. I had some food.... but I lost it. I was trying to catch a train. It left from Gate 8. I lost my Jacket. I went where lost jackets were but I didn't find it. There were similar jacketxs. I ordered food. I got a sandwich. We missed a flight.. I got to get food. Nick's eating a wrap. I want one. There was someone and she opened a present.
Pictures of Alison and Denis and Dan and kids and me. Dan's driving. He is breaking laws and being reckless. I'm staying at Dinny's and he tells me not to knock on any doors until 10 AM. We're looking at a gnostic bible. Denis gets a ride to IU. I'm driving around with Jamyang. He says not to keep this number or to write it or something.. There's a candy machine. He gives me some free candy. I could hear Ruben singing from Collins. I want to bike with Laura but we're stuck in traffic.
Playing a war game. When I fired a white missile I woke up in another place.
Tennis player Tsonga and Shawn wake me up. I was at a fancy table. Tennis players get mitochlorian count checked. Some people can survive on brocolli, tomato, and mushrooms. Under a tent. It's raining. I have a bandaid that devies gravity. There's a piece of paper with "Rot m" written on it. I'm supposed to eat. I get the idea that if you are joyful the hardest things seem easy.
Playing catch. Dogs in the diag. One has sharp claws and jumps on me. His hair was stiff. I speculated on a stock and it went down a dollar.
Playing basketball with a tiny ball. I can dunk. Getting fruity sparkling drinks at a grocery store. Someone made a video for a class. I do a metal detector on me and when I do my head... to lie on the ground.
I got bad grades. I was packing to go home for break.
Playing soccer. I was a goalie. a book with the five seals of... written upside down.. A girl jumps over a barbwire fence.
I went to see hookers. They said it was unlimited for $26. $3 at a time. We were going to see a video about kings. I left a worksheet in the library.
Swimming laps. Doing dolphin deep and having trouble. Finding the surface again because I am upside down. There's a running race around a track but there are instruments and ping pong balls. I'm asked to time it. A football game. It's tied. Colts have the ball, 6 minutes left. Kicker is injured. GR was on TV. I was looking for an article in a magazine about stars and planets. I lost it. We had a class and I told GR I saw him. Jamyang told me all I am is an ordinary being who is helping.
Lilly dog was biting me. People had arrows through them. A baseball game. I was going to buy movie tickets and friends were going to buy food. I decided ony to buy my own ticket. I had coupons or cash that only worked at one store in my pocket. I said I realized dreams and life are the same not because waking life is unreal but because dreams are real.
The Dalai Lama walked into a room and I was on a high seat and I went to curl to bow down and he told me "no, bodhichitta" and put my hands to prayer at my heart. Someone said in the debates they display a lot of compassion. There were small predators in a house. I was kinda afraid of being eaten but they were pets. One was like a mini cougar. There was a sheet and one of the questions was are you from the South but in another language. Maybe South was Socate. ONe of the animals started to eat an animal and I told it to stop and it did. I was telling people how I put mmy home town as New Orleans on facebook.
There were orange roller blades going down a campus. I tell someone to stop them to keep them together. The riders weren't there. Going across a stage with a puff the magic dragon mask on. I was doing laundry at a public place. I went through it once but I forgot to put the washer on normal wash. Theree was a magazine there with nude photos I looked through. There was a lot of other free stuff there including food. The magazine focused on the wives of Ramses, a pharoah. Some pages had one woman and some pages had a lot of women. I walked into an art studio. There were three naked women with paint on them. I asked if I could touch them. They said no. I asked if they would touch me. I took off my shirt and one started to give me a blowjob. There are these bikers with IU shirts on. We're staying at a motel. I see an ape in a suit. Iask if he's a monkey and he says he's an ape. I pee on a pillow on a chair while the door to the living room is open While we're riding in a car, I pull a black wire thing out of my penis. Sam Kerchival is doing this dance at like a school pep rally.
Waiting in line to use a gas station with Kristel.
Stuffing a bunch of pens in a case with an eraser. A little dog humping a little dog. Someone is building a space ship.
I had grades on assignments for science and math over 100%. Cities with Mayan pyramids. Climbing pyramids. A little snake runs through my fingers.
I was arrested, handcuffed, and put in jail. looking at a city skyline and trying to touch with my fingers. skyscrapers covering the whole way.
I was volunteering at a math class. A young guy said BFF. I talked about plugging in variables.
A huge wooden fort. Cutting wood.
I was rollerblading following someone with two big rocks in my hands. There was someone ahead of me with paint on his back. We started climbing rocks and I fell They told me if I broke my legs keep going. I was dancing. My big toe nail got picket at and the hard part is gone.
A martial arts center. I read a pamphlet about upening up the 58 to 60 something meridians. They tell me times to come. Someone with short arms is handing weights to someone else and then that person hands it back, on and on until one of them drops the weight.
I was driving a car. The station wagon, the breaks are out. Then lightning seems to come from the engine of the car and it was broken. A bus plowed through it. Daniel and other family was there. My dad had work. I wanted to set up a video game system. Playing soccer with Edward.
One was looking and said looking for bisexual doesn't mean he's looking for a man.
With Josh Bailey. There's this woman talking and she shows her breasts. They're talking about a stock market bubble. They were on the other side of a soundproof door. Josh said something about trying to act gay. I was in a bed and Sadguru was there. I was blind. I got my vision back and was able to go to the bathroom. When I got back to the room, I saw videos and movies about Buddha. When I was getting my vision back he asked me what I saw. I saw two trees out a window. Playing basketball.
A swim meet. I'm locked out of my team's pool. a Dharma center or house. I'm fighting and trying to meet women.
Watching TV, put palm to screen cuz it lets me choose any scene. I change scenes. I hear the planets appeared differently in the past, so I think they are conscious and moving.
Jason was reading questions about a musician. I guessed Yanni.
Someone doing flips, rolling around. John and Joe jump across a stream with me. I almost fall back into the stream but pull myself up by grass.
I was in an airport looking for my plane. I went to the seventh floor. I asked someone... He was writing a sign that said Maryland. I had some food.... but I lost it. I was trying to catch a train. It left from Gate 8. I lost my Jacket. I went where lost jackets were but I didn't find it. There were similar jacketxs. I ordered food. I got a sandwich. We missed a flight.. I got to get food. Nick's eating a wrap. I want one. There was someone and she opened a present.
Pictures of Alison and Denis and Dan and kids and me. Dan's driving. He is breaking laws and being reckless. I'm staying at Dinny's and he tells me not to knock on any doors until 10 AM. We're looking at a gnostic bible. Denis gets a ride to IU. I'm driving around with Jamyang. He says not to keep this number or to write it or something.. There's a candy machine. He gives me some free candy. I could hear Ruben singing from Collins. I want to bike with Laura but we're stuck in traffic.
Playing a war game. When I fired a white missile I woke up in another place.
Tennis player Tsonga and Shawn wake me up. I was at a fancy table. Tennis players get mitochlorian count checked. Some people can survive on brocolli, tomato, and mushrooms. Under a tent. It's raining. I have a bandaid that devies gravity. There's a piece of paper with "Rot m" written on it. I'm supposed to eat. I get the idea that if you are joyful the hardest things seem easy.
Playing catch. Dogs in the diag. One has sharp claws and jumps on me. His hair was stiff. I speculated on a stock and it went down a dollar.
Playing basketball with a tiny ball. I can dunk. Getting fruity sparkling drinks at a grocery store. Someone made a video for a class. I do a metal detector on me and when I do my head... to lie on the ground.
I got bad grades. I was packing to go home for break.
Playing soccer. I was a goalie. a book with the five seals of... written upside down.. A girl jumps over a barbwire fence.
I went to see hookers. They said it was unlimited for $26. $3 at a time. We were going to see a video about kings. I left a worksheet in the library.
Swimming laps. Doing dolphin deep and having trouble. Finding the surface again because I am upside down. There's a running race around a track but there are instruments and ping pong balls. I'm asked to time it. A football game. It's tied. Colts have the ball, 6 minutes left. Kicker is injured. GR was on TV. I was looking for an article in a magazine about stars and planets. I lost it. We had a class and I told GR I saw him. Jamyang told me all I am is an ordinary being who is helping.
Lilly dog was biting me. People had arrows through them. A baseball game. I was going to buy movie tickets and friends were going to buy food. I decided ony to buy my own ticket. I had coupons or cash that only worked at one store in my pocket. I said I realized dreams and life are the same not because waking life is unreal but because dreams are real.
The Dalai Lama walked into a room and I was on a high seat and I went to curl to bow down and he told me "no, bodhichitta" and put my hands to prayer at my heart. Someone said in the debates they display a lot of compassion. There were small predators in a house. I was kinda afraid of being eaten but they were pets. One was like a mini cougar. There was a sheet and one of the questions was are you from the South but in another language. Maybe South was Socate. ONe of the animals started to eat an animal and I told it to stop and it did. I was telling people how I put mmy home town as New Orleans on facebook.
There were orange roller blades going down a campus. I tell someone to stop them to keep them together. The riders weren't there. Going across a stage with a puff the magic dragon mask on. I was doing laundry at a public place. I went through it once but I forgot to put the washer on normal wash. Theree was a magazine there with nude photos I looked through. There was a lot of other free stuff there including food. The magazine focused on the wives of Ramses, a pharoah. Some pages had one woman and some pages had a lot of women. I walked into an art studio. There were three naked women with paint on them. I asked if I could touch them. They said no. I asked if they would touch me. I took off my shirt and one started to give me a blowjob. There are these bikers with IU shirts on. We're staying at a motel. I see an ape in a suit. Iask if he's a monkey and he says he's an ape. I pee on a pillow on a chair while the door to the living room is open While we're riding in a car, I pull a black wire thing out of my penis. Sam Kerchival is doing this dance at like a school pep rally.
Waiting in line to use a gas station with Kristel.
Stuffing a bunch of pens in a case with an eraser. A little dog humping a little dog. Someone is building a space ship.
I had grades on assignments for science and math over 100%. Cities with Mayan pyramids. Climbing pyramids. A little snake runs through my fingers.
I was arrested, handcuffed, and put in jail. looking at a city skyline and trying to touch with my fingers. skyscrapers covering the whole way.
I was volunteering at a math class. A young guy said BFF. I talked about plugging in variables.
A huge wooden fort. Cutting wood.
I was rollerblading following someone with two big rocks in my hands. There was someone ahead of me with paint on his back. We started climbing rocks and I fell They told me if I broke my legs keep going. I was dancing. My big toe nail got picket at and the hard part is gone.
A martial arts center. I read a pamphlet about upening up the 58 to 60 something meridians. They tell me times to come. Someone with short arms is handing weights to someone else and then that person hands it back, on and on until one of them drops the weight.
I was driving a car. The station wagon, the breaks are out. Then lightning seems to come from the engine of the car and it was broken. A bus plowed through it. Daniel and other family was there. My dad had work. I wanted to set up a video game system. Playing soccer with Edward.
Saturday, February 26, 2011
dream journal
I hold fist to palm both ways for a while. I go to use the toilet but it's clogged and overflows. Dylan is sleeping in that room. He says to reach in and see what's blocking it. There's a bunch of clothes in the toilet. Driving with Gehlek Rinpoche. I asked him about 3 syllables I had read in his book. There's a grocery store competition of who has the best food in their section. We have food with pepper on it to put in the eyes of people who try to steal our food. There was a midget who could spin on his head. I got there on a little bike that was lost.
I was driving. Trying to do full flips. I had to put my feet halfway off the board. I had a bunch of cell phones. Andrew Kloosterman wanted me to call him but there needed to be a comma in his number. To get the comma he had to play a video game on the phone. Playing tennis with Andrew Kloosterman and then a clinic starts. Going through an underground tunnel. A jump in front of us. We fall down a giant hole. Shani and Matt Miller are with me.
I had a project due in school. David Collins helped me out and I had photos to turn in to the teacher. Then I had an Astronomy class I didn't know how to get to.
Bees stinging me. I try to run as a wolf. They're on my toes.
Playing an arcade game where you blow each other up. I had a big red lighter and I traded it in for a small red lighter.
Food was being sent ahead. Nachoss and cheese in the lawn of Rinpoche. I don't have pants. I go to a bar. There's a table with a blonde haired girl. She shows me her body. I end up at a gym. I'm looking for an entrance to the UC system. It's upstairs. There's a guy playing basketball. I have shorts and a baseball bat.
Driving a car with me Amanda and Denis in it. He went of f road. We got stuck in a frozen stream or gulley. There was a big party. At McDonald's, I have a veggie burger and a milkshake. When the register opens people tell all at once what they want. I was in a room that was closing reading porn. My mom called me and told me to get out because it was Sunday evening. The room closed when I got out. It was made of stone.
I was reading a book that said too much human expansion. Too much lots of stuff.
Eating berries. One falls on the floor and I got dog hair on it. The berries were in Popsicles but they're growing in the freezer. We want to plant them outside. I was in a video game racing against Tristan. He kept beating me. I caught up with him and cut him into pieces. (this is fucked up because Tristan was in a car accident about this time) I was with Vic and Jezzela. We went to Collins and they had a body paint fest. Superman? I was at collins and they had food. There was mainly meat and I wouldn't eat it. So I'd eat soda. I offered the meat I was given to a stranger. I said I'd rather be born a bird if I starved. I put my soda down to try and get more but when I tried to find it changed from cold root beer to lukewarm mellow yellow. There was a half naked girl on a boat. Three sailors groped her and me.
Arrow fights and sword fights. Sliding through the halls of a large university on the ground. A bookstore. Book called Kingdom of the Quballistic cross.
There were some tiles with last name St. John and Amanda too. Me and Jason are arguing. Naked people. Wanting to get a job in DC. With Amanda applying. We played tennis earlier. I traded in Mardi Gras beeds for cash. Playing soccer. Sam Guerin is goalie. Small goals against a fence.
I was playing a violent video game. Adam was there. I ran out of ammo and then axed people. The gun had a green button on its left side and red buttons. I was swimming with yinchin and Meg. It was polluted. We were trying to get a law changed. The side by the river was polluted too and there were wild dogs like wolves. Denis was there and he was eating food he found. We were protesting at Harvard. Stephen Shyu was there. I left a blue greenpeace shirt and some flyer but we got greenpeace shirts and red shirts that said Navy. Mike Strain was there. Someone was going to dive down a rocky hole. When he wen he hit the side. There were papers with numbers with nude drawings.
Mario. He has a magic wand in a 8 bit game.
A 108 form class. Star wars. The rebel alliance is being shot down by star destroyers. A huge chunk of ship crashes. I'm standing in a line of a captured fleet being held. But I have a gun with little to now power. Playing tennis in a warehouse. I win the first game but I'm losing the second. I try a slice serve that goes way wide. With allison. We are flying somewhere and she pulls strings for us to stay in Hawaii on the way. She uses a computer program I'm not familiar with.
I was trapping insects, letting them go, and then blowing on them. Porn videos at a library. Talking about dharma books. Sondra Ji showed me photos and told me I should take photos.
We went to see a movie and I payed in jelly beans. They offered me a pepper or another vegetable to take. The jelly beans had different values. There were five dollar jelly beans for example.
There was a green dragon, a flying lizard. I wanted to learn sanskrit and Rebecca Williams was kissing me on top of the head. Watching Adam KI going through India and passing lots of donkies. Caleigh in overalls. Cartoon pictures of Caleigh. Alex Dubov in body paint.
A mushroom guy/toadstool T shirt I wanted. A Criss Angel T shirt with Tara. With Alex at Greenpeace working for coco puffs. Ate fish at Greenpeace of five then we got out ice cream. I was trying to get to Bloomington South but I couldn't find it. I was rollerblading. I told a woman this is a dream I think. She said I did good on my TNA. (I don't know what TNA is)
I had a big blue textbook and questions in Spanish. Someone in front of me had a forests T shirt on. The teacher said something about the clinton administration.
Bill Clinton in a movie acting. A double date. Me playing guitar with heart strings. I was overbilled for some candy. I wanted money back but lost the receipt. Mom's driving. She tries to take a shortcut but it's a longcut. Dan Tresslar and Austin Kish talking. Trying to do pushups on a really soft surface that had air and it didn't work.
I wanted to go to tai chi class. My brakes stopped working in the van. It got taken away.
Jordan dancing on roller skates. swimming. need apples. there are nets. Playing 1st person shooter.
A bookstore. Smash Bros. A frozen coke. Staring at a huge blue thing in a factory. I try to make it circular with my mind because I know I'm dreaming.
I was driving. Trying to do full flips. I had to put my feet halfway off the board. I had a bunch of cell phones. Andrew Kloosterman wanted me to call him but there needed to be a comma in his number. To get the comma he had to play a video game on the phone. Playing tennis with Andrew Kloosterman and then a clinic starts. Going through an underground tunnel. A jump in front of us. We fall down a giant hole. Shani and Matt Miller are with me.
I had a project due in school. David Collins helped me out and I had photos to turn in to the teacher. Then I had an Astronomy class I didn't know how to get to.
Bees stinging me. I try to run as a wolf. They're on my toes.
Playing an arcade game where you blow each other up. I had a big red lighter and I traded it in for a small red lighter.
Food was being sent ahead. Nachoss and cheese in the lawn of Rinpoche. I don't have pants. I go to a bar. There's a table with a blonde haired girl. She shows me her body. I end up at a gym. I'm looking for an entrance to the UC system. It's upstairs. There's a guy playing basketball. I have shorts and a baseball bat.
Driving a car with me Amanda and Denis in it. He went of f road. We got stuck in a frozen stream or gulley. There was a big party. At McDonald's, I have a veggie burger and a milkshake. When the register opens people tell all at once what they want. I was in a room that was closing reading porn. My mom called me and told me to get out because it was Sunday evening. The room closed when I got out. It was made of stone.
I was reading a book that said too much human expansion. Too much lots of stuff.
Eating berries. One falls on the floor and I got dog hair on it. The berries were in Popsicles but they're growing in the freezer. We want to plant them outside. I was in a video game racing against Tristan. He kept beating me. I caught up with him and cut him into pieces. (this is fucked up because Tristan was in a car accident about this time) I was with Vic and Jezzela. We went to Collins and they had a body paint fest. Superman? I was at collins and they had food. There was mainly meat and I wouldn't eat it. So I'd eat soda. I offered the meat I was given to a stranger. I said I'd rather be born a bird if I starved. I put my soda down to try and get more but when I tried to find it changed from cold root beer to lukewarm mellow yellow. There was a half naked girl on a boat. Three sailors groped her and me.
Arrow fights and sword fights. Sliding through the halls of a large university on the ground. A bookstore. Book called Kingdom of the Quballistic cross.
There were some tiles with last name St. John and Amanda too. Me and Jason are arguing. Naked people. Wanting to get a job in DC. With Amanda applying. We played tennis earlier. I traded in Mardi Gras beeds for cash. Playing soccer. Sam Guerin is goalie. Small goals against a fence.
I was playing a violent video game. Adam was there. I ran out of ammo and then axed people. The gun had a green button on its left side and red buttons. I was swimming with yinchin and Meg. It was polluted. We were trying to get a law changed. The side by the river was polluted too and there were wild dogs like wolves. Denis was there and he was eating food he found. We were protesting at Harvard. Stephen Shyu was there. I left a blue greenpeace shirt and some flyer but we got greenpeace shirts and red shirts that said Navy. Mike Strain was there. Someone was going to dive down a rocky hole. When he wen he hit the side. There were papers with numbers with nude drawings.
Mario. He has a magic wand in a 8 bit game.
A 108 form class. Star wars. The rebel alliance is being shot down by star destroyers. A huge chunk of ship crashes. I'm standing in a line of a captured fleet being held. But I have a gun with little to now power. Playing tennis in a warehouse. I win the first game but I'm losing the second. I try a slice serve that goes way wide. With allison. We are flying somewhere and she pulls strings for us to stay in Hawaii on the way. She uses a computer program I'm not familiar with.
I was trapping insects, letting them go, and then blowing on them. Porn videos at a library. Talking about dharma books. Sondra Ji showed me photos and told me I should take photos.
We went to see a movie and I payed in jelly beans. They offered me a pepper or another vegetable to take. The jelly beans had different values. There were five dollar jelly beans for example.
There was a green dragon, a flying lizard. I wanted to learn sanskrit and Rebecca Williams was kissing me on top of the head. Watching Adam KI going through India and passing lots of donkies. Caleigh in overalls. Cartoon pictures of Caleigh. Alex Dubov in body paint.
A mushroom guy/toadstool T shirt I wanted. A Criss Angel T shirt with Tara. With Alex at Greenpeace working for coco puffs. Ate fish at Greenpeace of five then we got out ice cream. I was trying to get to Bloomington South but I couldn't find it. I was rollerblading. I told a woman this is a dream I think. She said I did good on my TNA. (I don't know what TNA is)
I had a big blue textbook and questions in Spanish. Someone in front of me had a forests T shirt on. The teacher said something about the clinton administration.
Bill Clinton in a movie acting. A double date. Me playing guitar with heart strings. I was overbilled for some candy. I wanted money back but lost the receipt. Mom's driving. She tries to take a shortcut but it's a longcut. Dan Tresslar and Austin Kish talking. Trying to do pushups on a really soft surface that had air and it didn't work.
I wanted to go to tai chi class. My brakes stopped working in the van. It got taken away.
Jordan dancing on roller skates. swimming. need apples. there are nets. Playing 1st person shooter.
A bookstore. Smash Bros. A frozen coke. Staring at a huge blue thing in a factory. I try to make it circular with my mind because I know I'm dreaming.
Monday, February 14, 2011
stock market... wealth or woe
If you invested in the stock market when it started in the 1700s and held it until now you would have multiplied your money. Because this was true for 300 years people think the stock market is the best investment. But what has the stock market done to the environment which is the source of all wealth? Corporations have cut down all the trees in Europe and the United States. Corporations have used metals, soil, and water so unsustainably and scientists are predicting a collapse soon. So the stock market deteriorated the wealth of the United States and put all the wealth in the hands of the top one percent. But really, what wealth is left? The cars and computers are unsustainable. The soil is eroding. The water is getting polluted. The stock market might have enriched a small portion of the population on paper, but it has harmed the environment so much which is the natural basis for wealth that it is not a good investment for humanity.
Friday, February 4, 2011
not believing the theories
If electrons were solid particles they would crash into each other and go out of orbit. Since every atom's element is determined by the number of electrons it has in the theory, when this happens every time you touch something the electrons would collide, go out of orbit, and the elements of each thing would change. There would be electrons out of orbit flying everywhere. Therefore electrons are not particles. They came up with the theory of electrons orbiting a nucleus when they discovered that if you shoot a particle it sometimes went through a strip of gold and sometimes didn't. Another explanation for this is that something else is determining when it goes through and when it doesn't. They could sometimes follow a different path.
Monday, January 24, 2011
finding one
To love God is to love everyone. A gnostic text speaking from the perspective of God says, "I dwell in everyone." We have all existed forever. The forces that hold together the universe are another way of looking at god. If our ego controlled our bodies we'd be deformed and there would be a lot of problems just like it is difficult to draw a beautiful picture, yet nature provides countless beautiful pictures which is reality. When Shakyamuni predicted Shariputra he said that Shariputra would build a stupa for every buddha that he follows, a countless number of stupas. Do we really need to follow infinite buddhas to attain enlightenment? The yoga sutras have another path free of devotion to spiritual egos. One limb of that path is asana and I've read that there are over a hundred thousand asanas. To master all those asanas would be very difficult and that is just one limb. Perhaps if things only exist in relation to one another, to serve one teacher is as good as serving many because everyone is in everyone. We're all connected and if enlightenment is realizing your one with everything, seeing all buddhas in one teacher should be enough to serve all buddhas.
Sunday, January 16, 2011
quballah, archangels
I've been praying to the archangels to come under their protection and to see them. I didn't see any archangels but some mormon missionaries crossed my path. I talked with them about whether they thought the New Testament was wrong and they didn't think that. They thought all the churches should be united under God's church. I wasn't too sure about that. But that same day I went home and prayed to the archangels again and I felt the holy spirit in the base of my spine. I had never felt the holy spirit before. If it wasn't THE holy spirit it was A holy spirit. It was at the base of my spine and it was a peaceful spirit, quite blissful. I had a dream last night where I saw a book called The Kingdom of the Quballistic Cross. I'm not sure what it was about, but I learned to pray to the archangels from this book on Quballah called The Magic of Quballah. It started out by bowing down to the archangles who each had a direction and praying to come under their protection. I thought maybe each direction could be like a part of a cross and that could be the kingdom of the Quballistic cross. I don't see how it could be a kingdom yet, but it is a good thought.
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Nostradamus
Here are amazing prophecies by Nostradamus who lived in the 1500's. I got the quotes from the book "Nostradamus, The Complete Prophecies," by John Hogue.
"Beasts ferocious with hunger will cross the rivers,
The greater part of the battlefield will be against Hitler.
Into a cage of iron will the great one be drawn,
When the child of Germany observes nothing."
Could Nostradamus have forseen Hitler and World War II hundreds of years before they happened?
"Liberty will not be regained,
It will be occupied by a black, proud, villainous and unjust man:
When the matter of the Pontiff is opened,
The republic of Venice [Fascist Italy}
will be vexed by Hitler"
This to me is evidence that clairvoyance exists. It is sorrowful that there was so much suffering during world war II. If we can forsee something, shouldn't we be able to stop it? If Hitler was responsible for millions of people dying, wouldn't it have been just for God to have struck him down before he was able to kill so many? If this was forseeable and preventable, blame is on all seers and gods or enlightened beings because they could have stopped it.
"Beasts ferocious with hunger will cross the rivers,
The greater part of the battlefield will be against Hitler.
Into a cage of iron will the great one be drawn,
When the child of Germany observes nothing."
Could Nostradamus have forseen Hitler and World War II hundreds of years before they happened?
"Liberty will not be regained,
It will be occupied by a black, proud, villainous and unjust man:
When the matter of the Pontiff is opened,
The republic of Venice [Fascist Italy}
will be vexed by Hitler"
This to me is evidence that clairvoyance exists. It is sorrowful that there was so much suffering during world war II. If we can forsee something, shouldn't we be able to stop it? If Hitler was responsible for millions of people dying, wouldn't it have been just for God to have struck him down before he was able to kill so many? If this was forseeable and preventable, blame is on all seers and gods or enlightened beings because they could have stopped it.
Sunday, January 2, 2011
dream journal
I was in a cave. Someone with Greenpeace said I had to eat some ice crystals. I couldn't get to them. When I tried I fell into a stream of cold water that carried me away. There was a greenpeace pamphlet with meditation as part of it. It was white and blue. I had carried a Mario video game and system. I met Josh from Collins and we were going to play.
beautiful nude women. Mowed a lawn saying I have the blessings of immortality. Algebra homework. I'm looking for a worksheet but can't find it in time. There are tents. Red ones and Black ones. I'm trying to find Jess. I find baseballs. Throw them down the hill. We're playing Monopoly. Zach puts houses on a yellow space but he doesn't own all the yellows. I get mad he's breaking the rules. Playing frisbee. Dan beats me to the disk. A bunjy jump competition where people are holding on. I keep saying its crazy.
A video game fight. One person did a slide tackle and the other person lost the slide tackle didn't stop until the guy had been hit many times and died. I was planning to write to congress about clean water and climate change. There was a pep rally and I was climbing up meditation cushions. There was a copy of the tao of jeet kune do I thought was mine.
There were all sorts of used and still smoking pot pipes in the basement. I asked Jason and he said it wasn't just me. I went to pee but it overflowed the toilet. I was at a junior college named SJC. I wen to see the tennis coach. He had a dog who would bite me. I asked if I could play for him. He asked what spot I played in high school. He asked if my brother exposed himself naked in high school.
Traveling down a river. I'm at a bookstore that has a book high up that says Burying Jesus' last tablet, Tibetan Buddhist teachings. I'm at a hospital where they teach pain and surgery will give you joy. Nobody's signed up for it. Another book was about trees.
There were wrestlers trying to throw each other out of a ring. It was a college. This big guy who looked like a son on the show Home improvement was there. Then these other martial arts. I had a bird on my fingers and he wasn't afraid of me. It was a cage bird, very small. Amanda Butterfield sent me a card. She said she could show me Harvard. The card had my face moving.
I kept going over a math problem but every time I did it would change. There was a bioneers conference. They were taking nude photos of us, me, Zach Smith, and Ruben. I had folders and stuff mixed up with someone else. Tom Hanks was Kevin Collins' neighbor. He stopped by to say hi but didn't look like him. Nick Wickstrom was there. He said when the illusions start fallling, something or other. I said are we going to do some serious training today and did a chigong move. Then I was fighting this young kid and kicking him in the groin and face as we were fighting. Something about a video game where we were fighting other countries.
Nate became a journalist. I became Nate and Natasha's baby. There were flesh eating dogs that would try and eat us.
There was a green light in the woods. We were running from someone. Doing Tai Chi with Britten. Walking up stairs with her. Shooting something with a rubber band like a slingshot. An Anime character with a sword who dodges bullets and protects another character with a sword.
Doing yoga. Esther wants a rid home with me. We end up on a bus. Walking and running down the street. Putting out music for Ujjen on a table from a box to be sold.
Playing soccer, but there's a robot involved. A girl who's not very pretty in college lifting weights. I climb high on 1 and get thrown on my face. Someone's ..... for a movie with pictures of naked girls on it. Someone in a fresh commercial. His owl ran away. There were symbols on buildings. A train stopped and Tom got on. I was supposed to follow.
The Amazon rainforest was sinking below sea level. We were afraid of being fish or birds. I was falling down from the sky. I was swimming to avoid houses the size of castles. I had been blown away from deep water. A fish lands in an old man's house and he exclaims a fish, a fucking fish. I let go of a balloon and they flew into the air. Bill Gates had a UFO. A great mythical battle.
I was talking to Fabian on the phone. I asked him if he was going to an Ivy League school and then told him about everyone I knew who was going to an Ivy League school. But he wasn't on the line anymore. I was in a hospital with a foldout table. I looked in a mirror and I had veins sticking out of my face.
Baseball. Seeing a video of me playing gameboy with others in the stands. Watching football from the stands. Garbage everywhere. People drinking alcohol.
Running with Mark, Nate, and others. Jumping over rocks and doing flips. Fighting a Jewish kid and Nick Wick shows me moves. Someone asked for more money than I have. Sitting outside a house with a red van.
Playing catch with a frisbee. Using the whole wrist. With 2 girls. I run into Sean. I have a box of books I don't want to show him. I look in my backpack and there's a move there I don't remember checking out. I buy gummy worms. I'm on the phone talking to a Megan Meyers to write down upcoming events on a post it note.
Doing physics, applying for a scholarship. A drum that looks like a tub of yogurt. Playing a football video game.
Someone asking midget twin girls to dinner. They say they don't know him. But they're saying you're my friend's uncle's doctor's... Sheela Rajdev. Dropping from a high... There's dynamite there. Someone says it's like running fast. Drills with lots of bits balls falling through. Guy with huge eyebrows.
Working at a restaurant. Doing jump kicks and punches. In a classroom auditorium. They're testing. Say geometry is calculus. A starburst wrapper inside a starburst wrapper. I'm staying at someone's house and they got health food to eat. A huge online list of environmental concers to check. Acupuncture needles mixed with spices. Playing golf, having trouble with the grip.
Sending a letter to Heather that has mango smoothie written on it.
Hoola hooping with a piece of wood. Ninja Turtles football. Writing in my dream journal in purple ink. It's wet. Dad says something mean about Seamus. At a tennis center. Carrying balls on my racket. I don't make it to a court because I can't see.
Baseball player. Football player. Playing bubble bobble with Amanda. Only they have charged shots like mega man. I ordered 3 cds and got a free shirt. Trying to visualize Jamyang. Eating popcorn and talking to my mom about marks.
I was swinging in a gym across the whole thing. I was climbing before that and wanted to find a way to fall down. Golfing, and then I went to walk through campus barefoot. I see Aaron Walker and Josh Davis at the monastery. They cooked a lot of food they call amrita. Fighting Dylan and Daniel. I get a taste. Some of it has meat. Back in Collins class with Yinchin.
beautiful nude women. Mowed a lawn saying I have the blessings of immortality. Algebra homework. I'm looking for a worksheet but can't find it in time. There are tents. Red ones and Black ones. I'm trying to find Jess. I find baseballs. Throw them down the hill. We're playing Monopoly. Zach puts houses on a yellow space but he doesn't own all the yellows. I get mad he's breaking the rules. Playing frisbee. Dan beats me to the disk. A bunjy jump competition where people are holding on. I keep saying its crazy.
A video game fight. One person did a slide tackle and the other person lost the slide tackle didn't stop until the guy had been hit many times and died. I was planning to write to congress about clean water and climate change. There was a pep rally and I was climbing up meditation cushions. There was a copy of the tao of jeet kune do I thought was mine.
There were all sorts of used and still smoking pot pipes in the basement. I asked Jason and he said it wasn't just me. I went to pee but it overflowed the toilet. I was at a junior college named SJC. I wen to see the tennis coach. He had a dog who would bite me. I asked if I could play for him. He asked what spot I played in high school. He asked if my brother exposed himself naked in high school.
Traveling down a river. I'm at a bookstore that has a book high up that says Burying Jesus' last tablet, Tibetan Buddhist teachings. I'm at a hospital where they teach pain and surgery will give you joy. Nobody's signed up for it. Another book was about trees.
There were wrestlers trying to throw each other out of a ring. It was a college. This big guy who looked like a son on the show Home improvement was there. Then these other martial arts. I had a bird on my fingers and he wasn't afraid of me. It was a cage bird, very small. Amanda Butterfield sent me a card. She said she could show me Harvard. The card had my face moving.
I kept going over a math problem but every time I did it would change. There was a bioneers conference. They were taking nude photos of us, me, Zach Smith, and Ruben. I had folders and stuff mixed up with someone else. Tom Hanks was Kevin Collins' neighbor. He stopped by to say hi but didn't look like him. Nick Wickstrom was there. He said when the illusions start fallling, something or other. I said are we going to do some serious training today and did a chigong move. Then I was fighting this young kid and kicking him in the groin and face as we were fighting. Something about a video game where we were fighting other countries.
Nate became a journalist. I became Nate and Natasha's baby. There were flesh eating dogs that would try and eat us.
There was a green light in the woods. We were running from someone. Doing Tai Chi with Britten. Walking up stairs with her. Shooting something with a rubber band like a slingshot. An Anime character with a sword who dodges bullets and protects another character with a sword.
Doing yoga. Esther wants a rid home with me. We end up on a bus. Walking and running down the street. Putting out music for Ujjen on a table from a box to be sold.
Playing soccer, but there's a robot involved. A girl who's not very pretty in college lifting weights. I climb high on 1 and get thrown on my face. Someone's ..... for a movie with pictures of naked girls on it. Someone in a fresh commercial. His owl ran away. There were symbols on buildings. A train stopped and Tom got on. I was supposed to follow.
The Amazon rainforest was sinking below sea level. We were afraid of being fish or birds. I was falling down from the sky. I was swimming to avoid houses the size of castles. I had been blown away from deep water. A fish lands in an old man's house and he exclaims a fish, a fucking fish. I let go of a balloon and they flew into the air. Bill Gates had a UFO. A great mythical battle.
I was talking to Fabian on the phone. I asked him if he was going to an Ivy League school and then told him about everyone I knew who was going to an Ivy League school. But he wasn't on the line anymore. I was in a hospital with a foldout table. I looked in a mirror and I had veins sticking out of my face.
Baseball. Seeing a video of me playing gameboy with others in the stands. Watching football from the stands. Garbage everywhere. People drinking alcohol.
Running with Mark, Nate, and others. Jumping over rocks and doing flips. Fighting a Jewish kid and Nick Wick shows me moves. Someone asked for more money than I have. Sitting outside a house with a red van.
Playing catch with a frisbee. Using the whole wrist. With 2 girls. I run into Sean. I have a box of books I don't want to show him. I look in my backpack and there's a move there I don't remember checking out. I buy gummy worms. I'm on the phone talking to a Megan Meyers to write down upcoming events on a post it note.
Doing physics, applying for a scholarship. A drum that looks like a tub of yogurt. Playing a football video game.
Someone asking midget twin girls to dinner. They say they don't know him. But they're saying you're my friend's uncle's doctor's... Sheela Rajdev. Dropping from a high... There's dynamite there. Someone says it's like running fast. Drills with lots of bits balls falling through. Guy with huge eyebrows.
Working at a restaurant. Doing jump kicks and punches. In a classroom auditorium. They're testing. Say geometry is calculus. A starburst wrapper inside a starburst wrapper. I'm staying at someone's house and they got health food to eat. A huge online list of environmental concers to check. Acupuncture needles mixed with spices. Playing golf, having trouble with the grip.
Sending a letter to Heather that has mango smoothie written on it.
Hoola hooping with a piece of wood. Ninja Turtles football. Writing in my dream journal in purple ink. It's wet. Dad says something mean about Seamus. At a tennis center. Carrying balls on my racket. I don't make it to a court because I can't see.
Baseball player. Football player. Playing bubble bobble with Amanda. Only they have charged shots like mega man. I ordered 3 cds and got a free shirt. Trying to visualize Jamyang. Eating popcorn and talking to my mom about marks.
I was swinging in a gym across the whole thing. I was climbing before that and wanted to find a way to fall down. Golfing, and then I went to walk through campus barefoot. I see Aaron Walker and Josh Davis at the monastery. They cooked a lot of food they call amrita. Fighting Dylan and Daniel. I get a taste. Some of it has meat. Back in Collins class with Yinchin.
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