Dream Journal

I was lying on a beach. I left to go to the bathroom. I got a red IU/stop global warming T shirt. A man and woman wre lying down together.
One was looking and said looking for bisexual doesn't mean he's looking for a man.

With Josh Bailey. There's this woman talking and she shows her breasts. They're talking about a stock market bubble. They were on the other side of a soundproof door. Josh said something about trying to act gay. I was in a bed and Sadguru was there. I was blind. I got my vision back and was able to go to the bathroom. When I got back to the room, I saw videos and movies about Buddha. When I was getting my vision back he asked me what I saw. I saw two trees out a window. Playing basketball.

A swim meet. I'm locked out of my team's pool. a Dharma center or house. I'm fighting and trying to meet women.

Watching TV, put palm to screen cuz it lets me choose any scene. I change scenes. I hear the planets appeared differently in the past, so I think they are conscious and moving.

Jason was reading questions about a musician. I guessed Yanni.

Someone doing flips, rolling around. John and Joe jump across a stream with me. I almost fall back into the stream but pull myself up by grass.

I was in an airport looking for my plane. I went to the seventh floor. I asked someone... He was writing a sign that said Maryland. I had some food.... but I lost it. I was trying to catch a train. It left from Gate 8. I lost my Jacket. I went where lost jackets were but I didn't find it. There were similar jacketxs. I ordered food. I got a sandwich. We missed a flight.. I got to get food. Nick's eating a wrap. I want one. There was someone and she opened a present.

Pictures of Alison and Denis and Dan and kids and me. Dan's driving. He is breaking laws and being reckless. I'm staying at Dinny's and he tells me not to knock on any doors until 10 AM. We're looking at a gnostic bible. Denis gets a ride to IU. I'm driving around with Jamyang. He says not to keep this number or to write it or something.. There's a candy machine. He gives me some free candy. I could hear Ruben singing from Collins. I want to bike with Laura but we're stuck in traffic.

Playing a war game. When I fired a white missile I woke up in another place.

Tennis player Tsonga and Shawn wake me up. I was at a fancy table. Tennis players get mitochlorian count checked. Some people can survive on brocolli, tomato, and mushrooms. Under a tent. It's raining. I have a bandaid that devies gravity. There's a piece of paper with "Rot m" written on it. I'm supposed to eat. I get the idea that if you are joyful the hardest things seem easy.

Playing catch. Dogs in the diag. One has sharp claws and jumps on me. His hair was stiff. I speculated on a stock and it went down a dollar.

Playing basketball with a tiny ball. I can dunk. Getting fruity sparkling drinks at a grocery store. Someone made a video for a class. I do a metal detector on me and when I do my head... to lie on the ground.

I got bad grades. I was packing to go home for break.

Playing soccer. I was a goalie. a book with the five seals of... written upside down.. A girl jumps over a barbwire fence.

I went to see hookers. They said it was unlimited for $26. $3 at a time. We were going to see a video about kings. I left a worksheet in the library.

Swimming laps. Doing dolphin deep and having trouble. Finding the surface again because I am upside down. There's a running race around a track but there are instruments and ping pong balls. I'm asked to time it. A football game. It's tied. Colts have the ball, 6 minutes left. Kicker is injured. GR was on TV. I was looking for an article in a magazine about stars and planets. I lost it. We had a class and I told GR I saw him. Jamyang told me all I am is an ordinary being who is helping.

Lilly dog was biting me. People had arrows through them. A baseball game. I was going to buy movie tickets and friends were going to buy food. I decided ony to buy my own ticket. I had coupons or cash that only worked at one store in my pocket. I said I realized dreams and life are the same not because waking life is unreal but because dreams are real.

The Dalai Lama walked into a room and I was on a high seat and I went to curl to bow down and he told me "no, bodhichitta" and put my hands to prayer at my heart. Someone said in the debates they display a lot of compassion. There were small predators in a house. I was kinda afraid of being eaten but they were pets. One was like a mini cougar. There was a sheet and one of the questions was are you from the South but in another language. Maybe South was Socate. ONe of the animals started to eat an animal and I told it to stop and it did. I was telling people how I put mmy home town as New Orleans on facebook.

There were orange roller blades going down a campus. I tell someone to stop them to keep them together. The riders weren't there. Going across a stage with a puff the magic dragon mask on. I was doing laundry at a public place. I went through it once but I forgot to put the washer on normal wash. Theree was a magazine there with nude photos I looked through. There was a lot of other free stuff there including food. The magazine focused on the wives of Ramses, a pharoah. Some pages had one woman and some pages had a lot of women. I walked into an art studio. There were three naked women with paint on them. I asked if I could touch them. They said no. I asked if they would touch me. I took off my shirt and one started to give me a blowjob. There are these bikers with IU shirts on. We're staying at a motel. I see an ape in a suit. Iask if he's a monkey and he says he's an ape. I pee on a pillow on a chair while the door to the living room is open While we're riding in a car, I pull a black wire thing out of my penis. Sam Kerchival is doing this dance at like a school pep rally.

Waiting in line to use a gas station with Kristel.

Stuffing a bunch of pens in a case with an eraser. A little dog humping a little dog. Someone is building a space ship.

I had grades on assignments for science and math over 100%. Cities with Mayan pyramids. Climbing pyramids. A little snake runs through my fingers.

I was arrested, handcuffed, and put in jail. looking at a city skyline and trying to touch with my fingers. skyscrapers covering the whole way.

I was volunteering at a math class. A young guy said BFF. I talked about plugging in variables.

A huge wooden fort. Cutting wood.

I was rollerblading following someone with two big rocks in my hands. There was someone ahead of me with paint on his back. We started climbing rocks and I fell They told me if I broke my legs keep going. I was dancing. My big toe nail got picket at and the hard part is gone.

A martial arts center. I read a pamphlet about upening up the 58 to 60 something meridians. They tell me times to come. Someone with short arms is handing weights to someone else and then that person hands it back, on and on until one of them drops the weight.

I was driving a car. The station wagon, the breaks are out. Then lightning seems to come from the engine of the car and it was broken. A bus plowed through it. Daniel and other family was there. My dad had work. I wanted to set up a video game system. Playing soccer with Edward.

dream journal

I hold fist to palm both ways for a while. I go to use the toilet but it's clogged and overflows. Dylan is sleeping in that room. He says to reach in and see what's blocking it. There's a bunch of clothes in the toilet. Driving with Gehlek Rinpoche. I asked him about 3 syllables I had read in his book. There's a grocery store competition of who has the best food in their section. We have food with pepper on it to put in the eyes of people who try to steal our food. There was a midget who could spin on his head. I got there on a little bike that was lost.

I was driving. Trying to do full flips. I had to put my feet halfway off the board. I had a bunch of cell phones. Andrew Kloosterman wanted me to call him but there needed to be a comma in his number. To get the comma he had to play a video game on the phone. Playing tennis with Andrew Kloosterman and then a clinic starts. Going through an underground tunnel. A jump in front of us. We fall down a giant hole. Shani and Matt Miller are with me.

I had a project due in school. David Collins helped me out and I had photos to turn in to the teacher. Then I had an Astronomy class I didn't know how to get to.

Bees stinging me. I try to run as a wolf. They're on my toes.

Playing an arcade game where you blow each other up. I had a big red lighter and I traded it in for a small red lighter.

Food was being sent ahead. Nachoss and cheese in the lawn of Rinpoche. I don't have pants. I go to a bar. There's a table with a blonde haired girl. She shows me her body. I end up at a gym. I'm looking for an entrance to the UC system. It's upstairs. There's a guy playing basketball. I have shorts and a baseball bat.

Driving a car with me Amanda and Denis in it. He went of f road. We got stuck in a frozen stream or gulley. There was a big party. At McDonald's, I have a veggie burger and a milkshake. When the register opens people tell all at once what they want. I was in a room that was closing reading porn. My mom called me and told me to get out because it was Sunday evening. The room closed when I got out. It was made of stone.

I was reading a book that said too much human expansion. Too much lots of stuff.

Eating berries. One falls on the floor and I got dog hair on it. The berries were in Popsicles but they're growing in the freezer. We want to plant them outside. I was in a video game racing against Tristan. He kept beating me. I caught up with him and cut him into pieces. (this is fucked up because Tristan was in a car accident about this time) I was with Vic and Jezzela. We went to Collins and they had a body paint fest. Superman? I was at collins and they had food. There was mainly meat and I wouldn't eat it. So I'd eat soda. I offered the meat I was given to a stranger. I said I'd rather be born a bird if I starved. I put my soda down to try and get more but when I tried to find it changed from cold root beer to lukewarm mellow yellow. There was a half naked girl on a boat. Three sailors groped her and me.

Arrow fights and sword fights. Sliding through the halls of a large university on the ground. A bookstore. Book called Kingdom of the Quballistic cross.

There were some tiles with last name St. John and Amanda too. Me and Jason are arguing. Naked people. Wanting to get a job in DC. With Amanda applying. We played tennis earlier. I traded in Mardi Gras beeds for cash. Playing soccer. Sam Guerin is goalie. Small goals against a fence.

I was playing a violent video game. Adam was there. I ran out of ammo and then axed people. The gun had a green button on its left side and red buttons. I was swimming with yinchin and Meg. It was polluted. We were trying to get a law changed. The side by the river was polluted too and there were wild dogs like wolves. Denis was there and he was eating food he found. We were protesting at Harvard. Stephen Shyu was there. I left a blue greenpeace shirt and some flyer but we got greenpeace shirts and red shirts that said Navy. Mike Strain was there. Someone was going to dive down a rocky hole. When he wen he hit the side. There were papers with numbers with nude drawings.

Mario. He has a magic wand in a 8 bit game.

A 108 form class. Star wars. The rebel alliance is being shot down by star destroyers. A huge chunk of ship crashes. I'm standing in a line of a captured fleet being held. But I have a gun with little to now power. Playing tennis in a warehouse. I win the first game but I'm losing the second. I try a slice serve that goes way wide. With allison. We are flying somewhere and she pulls strings for us to stay in Hawaii on the way. She uses a computer program I'm not familiar with.

I was trapping insects, letting them go, and then blowing on them. Porn videos at a library. Talking about dharma books. Sondra Ji showed me photos and told me I should take photos.

We went to see a movie and I payed in jelly beans. They offered me a pepper or another vegetable to take. The jelly beans had different values. There were five dollar jelly beans for example.

There was a green dragon, a flying lizard. I wanted to learn sanskrit and Rebecca Williams was kissing me on top of the head. Watching Adam KI going through India and passing lots of donkies. Caleigh in overalls. Cartoon pictures of Caleigh. Alex Dubov in body paint.

A mushroom guy/toadstool T shirt I wanted. A Criss Angel T shirt with Tara. With Alex at Greenpeace working for coco puffs. Ate fish at Greenpeace of five then we got out ice cream. I was trying to get to Bloomington South but I couldn't find it. I was rollerblading. I told a woman this is a dream I think. She said I did good on my TNA. (I don't know what TNA is)

I had a big blue textbook and questions in Spanish. Someone in front of me had a forests T shirt on. The teacher said something about the clinton administration.

Bill Clinton in a movie acting. A double date. Me playing guitar with heart strings. I was overbilled for some candy. I wanted money back but lost the receipt. Mom's driving. She tries to take a shortcut but it's a longcut. Dan Tresslar and Austin Kish talking. Trying to do pushups on a really soft surface that had air and it didn't work.

I wanted to go to tai chi class. My brakes stopped working in the van. It got taken away.

Jordan dancing on roller skates. swimming. need apples. there are nets. Playing 1st person shooter.

A bookstore. Smash Bros. A frozen coke. Staring at a huge blue thing in a factory. I try to make it circular with my mind because I know I'm dreaming.

stock market... wealth or woe

If you invested in the stock market when it started in the 1700s and held it until now you would have multiplied your money. Because this was true for 300 years people think the stock market is the best investment. But what has the stock market done to the environment which is the source of all wealth? Corporations have cut down all the trees in Europe and the United States. Corporations have used metals, soil, and water so unsustainably and scientists are predicting a collapse soon. So the stock market deteriorated the wealth of the United States and put all the wealth in the hands of the top one percent. But really, what wealth is left? The cars and computers are unsustainable. The soil is eroding. The water is getting polluted. The stock market might have enriched a small portion of the population on paper, but it has harmed the environment so much which is the natural basis for wealth that it is not a good investment for humanity.

not believing the theories

If electrons were solid particles they would crash into each other and go out of orbit. Since every atom's element is determined by the number of electrons it has in the theory, when this happens every time you touch something the electrons would collide, go out of orbit, and the elements of each thing would change. There would be electrons out of orbit flying everywhere. Therefore electrons are not particles. They came up with the theory of electrons orbiting a nucleus when they discovered that if you shoot a particle it sometimes went through a strip of gold and sometimes didn't. Another explanation for this is that something else is determining when it goes through and when it doesn't. They could sometimes follow a different path.