What's new Liam? I was remembering the experiences I had holding mudras for long periods of time a long time ago and I wanted to feel the bliss again. I decided to try again. One day I went to the diag and held a mudra for a while counting my breaths. A couple people came up to me. One person's name was Deva Das. He read me a verse from the Bhagavad Gita about how our soul was not created and how nobody can destroy the soul. I was familiar with the idea and it was refreshing to meet someone who had the same belief. He insisted I accept a copy of the Gita from him which I had already read from college hinduism class and from yoga teacher training. I took it and told him I may not read it, because I had a lot of unread books already. He said, he wanted me to read the introduction. When I read the introduction, I felt intense bliss at my ajna chakra, which is not unusual for me anymore. The introduction said that living beings are permanent. I'm not sure if this is true or not. Shantideva has said, as long as sentient beings remain, and as long as space endures, may I too remain. Avaloketesvara has vowed in past lives, probably past eons, to remain until all beings attain nirvana. if it is true that living beings are permanent, then these two souls may rethink their vow or else simply remain forever. It said that if we think of Krishna and only Krishna when we are dying we will be taken by him to his world or heaven where there is no sickness, old age, or death. I wonder what it is like there!
I have largely quit my job fixing chips in windshields because business was too slow. I intend to get back into meditation, reading, drawing, playing ukulele and other things to fill up the time. I have been reading Criss Angel's book, secret revelations. He says early on in the book that some of what he does is genuine and some of it is a trick or an illusion. He says what most people think is genuine isn't, and what most people think is a trick or an illusion is genuine. Later in the book he says nothing he does is supernatural and that he doesn't believe in anything supernatural. Perhaps these powers are natural, part of our buddha nature? I have been having dreams most nights. I dreamed last night I was falling down a cliff. There were tiny ledges on the way down. At the end of it I wanted to just fall and cry out to avaloketesvara or God to see if crying would break the fall. I think it did. I remember someone fell after me and I cried for him and he sort of levitated as he was about to hit the ground as I cried for him.
My parents are going to California this summer. They won't let me stay in the house here when they leave. I plan to move into the homeless shelter.
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When I met David Das, I also talked to him about Buddhism. I told him that I didn't know if I accepted the second noble truth, that craving or desire is the cause of suffering. He said there is no self without desire, just as there is no sun without fire. If you try to separate fire from the sun, there is no sun. If you try to separate desire from the self, there is no self. I thought, maybe that is why Buddhists say there is no self. Maybe when we are free of desire we cease to grasp at a self and we enter into whatever nirvana is. Or perhaps, Guatema was simply wrong. I doubt David would say Guatema was wrong because he said he was a Krishna incarnation.
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