trips to Ashrams, chasing Krishna

I went with Deva Madhava Das to Detroit to visit the Ashram.  I met a lot of people there.  We spent a lot of time chanting the Hare Krishna mantra.  I learned that they believe Krishna had 16,108 wives and ten children with each of them.  It seems so crazy to me.  I naturally don't really like that idea.  They have a precept against all intoxicants including caffeine.  I was so tired waking up at 7 in the morning and not having any coffee.  I didn't have any spiritual experiences in Detroit the whole time I was there except for dreams.  I dream even when I am at home.  I went the next weekend with Deva to New Vrindavan in West Virginia, another Hare Krishna temple.  I didn't really have any spiritual experiences there either.  I met a couple people I liked though.  I met this woman Kelly.  She said when she enters into meditation she can hear Vishnu.  I asked her to give me a message from Vishnu and she did after the trip was over.  She said "What came was that all sorts of light will be coming your way, that the Gita has all the answers to your questions. Be patient my friend and let things happen as they should."  I also spent some time talking to a woman, Cristina.  I had seen her before at Bhakti Yoga society.  I am hoping I will get to be good friends with her.  I heard from Nichelle after the trip.  She almost overdosed on cocaine.  It was shocking to hear.  When I last posted I said that I was thinking about going to the homeless shelter this summer when my parents leave town.  But I thought of going to D.C. and Vermont instead.  I wanted to volunteer for the Earth Policy Institute. I emailed them and called them and inquired into volunteering there.  They finally wrote back and told me that they don't have any volunteer opportunities.  At this point my plan for the summer is just to subdue my ego and go to California with my parents.  If nothing else comes up, I can read, do art, tai chi, and yoga.  During yoga teacher training I got into the habit of doing shambhavi mahamudra and then nithya yoga one right after the other in the morning.  When I would do it, I would feel intense bliss at the base of my spine.  I tried it again today and earlier this week but I did not feel the bliss at the base of my spine.  I cannot imagine what nirvana is like, so recently I have been trying to just enjoy being alive.  I feel that religions have too much conviction in their own paths and Gods when clearly there is conflict between them.  I just hope God will be kind to me and let me have what I need and want.  I hope God can do that for everyone.