thinking over things

I felt this incredible bliss at my throat chakra during yoga nidra. Sometimes around Steve, the tai chi teacher, I feel blissful at my crown. I felt a red light at my throat chakra once at tai chi class. I love the spirit of tai chi class. It feels like everything will be OK. When I meditate on the New Meditation Handbook wishing love, etc. I feel so much love and bliss at my heart. I am so happy with my progress and owe my teachers everything and feel their wisdom growing inside me. Anothher time I felt my heart I was reading the sublime golden light sutra and read the chapter on the tigress, when it said Shakyamuni willingly endured hell for aeons I felt golden light at my heart. Normally I don't feel any chakras, just when I practice. I gave up school in a traditional sense and success for my spiritual practice. I stopped making assumptions and trusting the authorities and then I didn't finish college. In a many life perspective this has worked out much better. I'm still nervous about mandala offerings but I love the meditations of new meditation handbook. I want to start chanting the infinite life sutra chapters regularly. I love iron and wine a lot. When I saw the dalai lama I was hearing the voices guiding me again and meditated on how all beings have been every species of animal countless times, etc. and then I felt this red light rising from my mooladhara and I felt surrounded by a red shield. I felt my crown when I tried to visualize the dalai lama as 1,000 armed avaloketesvara. I'm reading Maitreya's middle beyond extremes. I pray my practice becomes stable and keeps growing so that I can be really happy. The band iron and wine makes me really happy. So does Regina Spektor.